I find this mess quite beautiful

I am sososo exhausted it is not even funny but i have so much shit to do. 

Soccer two a days are killing me!! I am getting so much better though & my couch told me that he is impressed. I am suchhh a perfectionist so it bugs me so much when i can not do something or when i’m bad at something |: I just need to keep working though. 

I miss you soooo much, & i think that finally knowing where you stand has made me miss you more. You are so far away. Ah. We didn’t talk today, but i am feeling okay about that. You are so cute, without trying at all. “wanna go grab some breakfast?” honey, you have nooooo idea how badly i want that every single day.  I know that this is so soon & may sounds super weird…but i want to fall in love with you. |: There’s really no point in us making this a “legit relationship” because it makes no difference whether we have the title or not, & that is fine. I just wish that you were here. We were talking about graduation yesterday & you said that it was a possiblity that you could be here for ours. This made me happppy, but i just wish that you could be here for everything. Senior sunrise, senior breakfast, prom, the all nighter, EVERYTHING. 

My heart is so curious about all of this. I want this, really bad. My best friend says that i shouldn’t try to make anything out of it right now, but i don’t think that i can even help myself. 
 I wish that money was NO issue because i would come see you all the time & i know you would do the same. Come back to me soon please.  

Listen. If you like hip hop, you should dig it. 
Like it. Become a fan. Give him some love.
This is my best friend. <3 

You have been sososo sweet the last few days. It’s not like you’re trying to be sweet though, you’re just being genuine which makes it that much better(: